Ruby

On April 24, 2012 I had to do the most heartbreaking thing I have ever done. I put my Ruby to sleep. She has hystiocytoma (sp?) Cancer. She had cancer. And it took her down in about 2 months. The cancer was ruthless. She stopped eating so on her last day before I took her to the vet I gave her boiled hamburger and rice and gravy. She ate sausage. She had boiled turkey and rice and she went to the park and laid in the sun. I took her to the vet and then couldn't stay with her. They gave her stuff to make her sleep and that's how I saw her last. Sleeping peacefully.
I miss her so much. She was so smart. She could bow on command. She would hide her head on command. She spoke on command. She snuggled with me all the time. She slept on my bed for 13 years. I haven't moved her bed off my bed yet because I feel like I might be betraying her if I do. I haven't moved her food bowl off the counter because I just can't. I got her ashes back and I cry every time I look at them. I have a picture of her beside my bed and first thing in the morning I say 'good morning baby girl'....I didn't know I could love something as much as I loved her. My heart is still broken in a million little pieces and I'm not sure what it's going to take to get it to heal.
Good-bye my Ruby...I miss you. September 1, 1999-April 24, 2012